If Tomorrow Starts Without ME

If tomorrow starts without me,
And I'm not there to see,
If the sun should rise and find your eyes
All filled with tears for me;

I wish so much you wouldn't cry
The way you did today,
While thinking of the many things,
We didn't get to say.

I know how much you love me,
As much as I love you,
And each time that you think of me,
I know you'll miss me too;

But when tomorrow starts without me,
Please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name,
And took me by the hand,

And said my place was ready,
In heaven far above,
And that I'd have to leave behind
All those I dearly love.

But as I turned to walk away,
A tear fell from my eye,
For all my life, I'd always thought,
I didn't want to die.

I had so much to live for,
So much left yet to do,
It seemed almost impossible,
That I was leaving you.

I thought of all the yesterdays,
The good ones and the bad,
I thought of all that we shared,
And all the fun we had.

If I could relive yesterday,
Just even for a while,
I'd say good-bye and kiss you
And maybe see you smile.

But then I fully realized,
That this could never be,
For emptiness and memories,
Would take the place of me.

And when I thought of worldly things,
I might miss some tomorrow,
I thought of you, and when I did,
My heart was filled with sorrow.

But when I walked through heaven's gates,
I felt so much at home.
When God looked down and smiled at me,
From His great golden throne,

He said, "This is eternity,
And all I've promised you.
"Today your life on earth is past,
But here life starts anew.

I promise no tomorrow,
But today will always last,
And since each day is the same way,
There's no longing for the past.

So when tomorrow starts without me,
Don't think we're far apart,
For every time you think of me,
I'm right here, in your heart "

....Its All About ME....

Happy Birthday mami~

It happened to me again...I was so depressed today...the morning I was still fine...then at night my head felt so heavy...I couldn't do anything at all...I thought all this while, I can handle my stress easily but I was wrong...I think I get depression for some times already...

My friends say I look pretty normal at school, always with a smile on my face:)...however they don't realise that sometimes I suffer from mood swings....I think only a fews of my friends know about it...there's not much things I could do really, today I decided to find someone chat....but I not really sure who to look for...will they think I'm annoy, weird or crazy? Fortunately ah yang and mimihuhu are there for me...

At this moment, I feel like want to cry very much...but I just don't have enough energy to do it....feel silly too...I need to sort this out asap...can't afford to waste my precious time on this...Always stay with me God! I need strength...

Wordless

Today is my first exam day...I was rather dissapointed...Why? Because I didn't put much effort in it...serve me right...What I've done these fews day was wasting time, daydreaming, looking in the mirror and vain...sigh...

Something is bothering me...Why would I let this thing occupied my mind...Its so worthless...but I just couldn't stop thinking about it...Perhaps what my physics tutor said was right...there is always attraction between opposite pole!

October almost come to end...this month past so fast...and soon 2010 will arrive...

Riddle solved

After all the sweet talks and everythings...I found out it wasn't sincere...I felt so stupid...I was being used...Why I didn't notice ealier...clever, tricky, dangerous man...Luckily I realised soon...haven't fall into the trap...