Keep Going

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When cares are pressing you down a bit,
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns.
And many a fellow turns about,
When he might have won, had he stuck it out.
Don't give up, though the pace seems slow,
You may succeed with another blow.

Often the goal is nearer than
It seems to a faint and faltering man;
Often the struggler has given up,
When he might have captured the victor's cup;
And he learned too late when the night came down,
How close he was to the golden crown.

Success is failure turned inside out,
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt.
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems afar;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit,
It's when things seem worst that you mustn't quit.

If Tomorrow Starts Without ME

If tomorrow starts without me,
And I'm not there to see,
If the sun should rise and find your eyes
All filled with tears for me;

I wish so much you wouldn't cry
The way you did today,
While thinking of the many things,
We didn't get to say.

I know how much you love me,
As much as I love you,
And each time that you think of me,
I know you'll miss me too;

But when tomorrow starts without me,
Please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name,
And took me by the hand,

And said my place was ready,
In heaven far above,
And that I'd have to leave behind
All those I dearly love.

But as I turned to walk away,
A tear fell from my eye,
For all my life, I'd always thought,
I didn't want to die.

I had so much to live for,
So much left yet to do,
It seemed almost impossible,
That I was leaving you.

I thought of all the yesterdays,
The good ones and the bad,
I thought of all that we shared,
And all the fun we had.

If I could relive yesterday,
Just even for a while,
I'd say good-bye and kiss you
And maybe see you smile.

But then I fully realized,
That this could never be,
For emptiness and memories,
Would take the place of me.

And when I thought of worldly things,
I might miss some tomorrow,
I thought of you, and when I did,
My heart was filled with sorrow.

But when I walked through heaven's gates,
I felt so much at home.
When God looked down and smiled at me,
From His great golden throne,

He said, "This is eternity,
And all I've promised you.
"Today your life on earth is past,
But here life starts anew.

I promise no tomorrow,
But today will always last,
And since each day is the same way,
There's no longing for the past.

So when tomorrow starts without me,
Don't think we're far apart,
For every time you think of me,
I'm right here, in your heart "

....Its All About ME....

Happy Birthday mami~

It happened to me again...I was so depressed today...the morning I was still fine...then at night my head felt so heavy...I couldn't do anything at all...I thought all this while, I can handle my stress easily but I was wrong...I think I get depression for some times already...

My friends say I look pretty normal at school, always with a smile on my face:)...however they don't realise that sometimes I suffer from mood swings....I think only a fews of my friends know about it...there's not much things I could do really, today I decided to find someone chat....but I not really sure who to look for...will they think I'm annoy, weird or crazy? Fortunately ah yang and mimihuhu are there for me...

At this moment, I feel like want to cry very much...but I just don't have enough energy to do it....feel silly too...I need to sort this out asap...can't afford to waste my precious time on this...Always stay with me God! I need strength...

Wordless

Today is my first exam day...I was rather dissapointed...Why? Because I didn't put much effort in it...serve me right...What I've done these fews day was wasting time, daydreaming, looking in the mirror and vain...sigh...

Something is bothering me...Why would I let this thing occupied my mind...Its so worthless...but I just couldn't stop thinking about it...Perhaps what my physics tutor said was right...there is always attraction between opposite pole!

October almost come to end...this month past so fast...and soon 2010 will arrive...

Riddle solved

After all the sweet talks and everythings...I found out it wasn't sincere...I felt so stupid...I was being used...Why I didn't notice ealier...clever, tricky, dangerous man...Luckily I realised soon...haven't fall into the trap...

My L~ friends~!~!~!

one my L friends is leaving today....so so sad...that I can't send her today T____T...sorry....hope you don't mind...you'll always on my mind~!~!~! MIMI HUHU~!~! Be a good girl~!~! Move your body, "I DON'T CARE~E~E~E~E~E~"!

I really had a lot of funs when you and wen are around~!~! Won't forget this thousandsss, BEst, niceST momoriessss we spent together~!~!~! I'LL TREASURE IT~~

LENG LOI~!~!~!

MY 2 CRYIN BABIESSS~~~~

WHEN YOU COME BACK WE DO MANICURE AGAIN~!~!~!

GOGOGO!! MIMI HUHU~!~! GOOD LUCK IN YOUR A LEVEL~!~! A*A*A*!!!

DON'T CRY TOO MUCH O...LATER EYES SWOLLEN~ HUGGIESS~!~!~!

~~KISS KISS FALL IN LOVE~~

~~WILL MISS YOU~~

~~SAYONARA~~

~~CHOI KIN~~

Untitled

JUz realised that guys cant stand alone...dats y they constantly need gals company...any gals will do i guess....eventhough that guys r in a relationship...dats y i guess guys cant survive long-distance relationship n widowed guys wont stand alone dat long....those guys r so weak...

I think gals r better to cope with loneliness...at least when they broke a relationship they din attach dat soon as compare to guyS, duh...

In addition to dat, i wonder y guys oweys do sweet talk...din they noe its a crime...it is an act of stealing a gal's heart...they shud hav be more responsible...gals heart r longing 4 it.....which oso means the gals heart will become addicted to the sweetness...then it will be too hard 4 it to withdraw...

...gals r constantly searching 4 true love...but guys cant stand loneliness n need companionS...i wonder how a couple will fulfill each other needs n wants...it must be very tough...i juz hope dat experiances and any obstacles will make the relationship stronger....reli..

Too Close To The Sun (David Usher)

Too Close To The Sun"

High above your atmosphere
Do they all still cheer for who they think we are
And once more past the sun again
Feelings sinking in I think we've gone to far

And why did you fly did you burn
Can't you learn from my mistakes
I have made them so I know

Bored just one more cup of tea
All the stars and me they'll teach me how to shine
'Cause life it's so much colder here
I'll absorb your fears and bury them inside

And why did you fly did you burn
Can't you learn from my mistakes
I have made them so I know

You're too close to the sun
You're too close to the sun
You're too close to the sun
You're too close to the sun
You're too close to the sun

Things we found so lovely
Turn so ugly
I've grown nakeder day by day
It's quite disarming I find it alarming
When everybody's listening

Why did you fly did you burn
Can't you learn from what weve learned
I can't see you anymore

You're too close to the sun
You're too close to the sun
You're too close to the sun
You're too close to the sun
You're too close to the sun

GLOOMY DAYS~~

Friends are nice....they make you laugh, accompany you everywhere and are there when you need them! Sometimes they can do somethings unexpected which hurt a bit...but friends are still friends...They influence and inspire me a lot! That's what make me a better person! I guess~

I told almost everythings to them and try to seek advices from them. However, sometimes I feel one friend alone will not provide the right solution for the problems...In the end, I am the one who will make the final judgement...so hard...

I don't think others can help me this time...its so tragic...I don't know why this is happening to me...perhaps its one of the life's assessment...My heart have been locked for 5 years. Someone unlocked it at the wrong time...and not suppose to do that...I'm so guilty!! My gosh!

what life is this?

Love? I still remember my middle-aged English tutor said that he already married twice and still don't know exactly what is Love.

Neither do i understand 'in a relationship' ...for me its like 'ok...sweet...'
Everyday there is heart-broken...I often wonder why some people in a relationship still wanna woo someone else. Its so outrageous...i always avoid such people in my life. But sometimes they happened to be my good friends...Why can't they be more loyal their gf/bf...so sick...

MOVIE-day

'ANGEL AND DEMON' finally got the chance to watch it!!

I watched it with my family last Thursday...At first was a bit confusing due to lack of eng subtitle...the movie's plot was so-so, but the scenes was shot around the Italy and they actually did the shot in many churches, some of the churches are creepy, old and abandoned! So, still worth to watch...lol. That's about the movie.

I booked the tickets via phone. The person in charge was totally weird, by asking very weird questions like 'how old are you?' and 'Do you have a boyfriend?' So piss off asking like that. He even asked for my hp no. I really dislike when stranger keep asking for my hp no., as if they want to stalk me...GET LOST!!

Looking forward to watch another movie(BLOOD) with my friends!

I think human is still a very complicated organism ever exist

If you happen to go stadium to have a jog, you will see that most people walk anticlockwise instead of clockwise.

This tells that why some people tend to do thing against the laws.

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In the exam mood. Feel like want to blog while still in this mood before it's gone.

For me,

Physics = misleading (quite true)
Chemistry = icing on the cake (no logic)
Biology = never ending story (weird)

If We Hold on Together (The Land Before Time)

Don't lose your way
With each passing day
You've come so far
Don't throw it away
Live believing
Dreams are for weaving
Wonders are waiting to start
Live your story
Faith, hope & glory
Hold to the truth in your heart

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and I

Souls in the wind
Must learn how to bend
Seek out a star
Hold on to the end
Valley, mountain
There is a fountain
Washes our tears all away
Words are swaying
Someone is praying
Please let us come home to stay

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and I

When we are out there in the dark
We'll dream about the sun
In the dark we'll feel the light
Warm our hearts, everyone

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
As high as souls can fly
The clouds roll by
For you and I

Fairness in society

All of us must have aware the imbalance in our world. Lets us refer to the neediest in our world like in Africa. Eventhough our world is developing and modernised, the situation still exist today. Those "more than enough" people keep wasting whatever is surplus to them such as foods. While nothing is done to fulfill the need of the neediest. If all people think that their lives is important, what make some people think that others lives are not important as themselves? Most people just speak and think about it but no action!

In my part of the world, where education is apparent, honours were often given to those who excel in academic and lots of competition are organised, intending to choose the best from the bests. Those with good academic will forsee a bright future ahead. Aren't this just for individual's sake. Our world don't need a pro user of english. Does that help to balance the world? Or make the world a better place to live? They have ample time in improving sentences and finding vocabs, why don't they reach out for the poors? Teenagers, including me, are more than able to do something to solve the world's crisis. Spending awful lots of time in school will not always lead to a better outcomes. Most important is self-awareness and justifications. If people stop thinking selfishly, and spare some thought for the rest, i'm sure the world would become a better place to live.

Brown Eyes (Lady GaGa)

In your brown eyes, I walked away
In your brown eyes, I couldn't stay
In your brown eyes, you watch her go
Then turn the record on
And wonder what went wrong (what went wrong)

If everything was everything, but everything is over
Everything could be everything, if only we were older
Guess its just a silly song about you
And how I lost you,
and your brown eyes

In your brown eyes, I was feeling low
Cause the brown eyes, and you'll never know
Got some brown eyes, but I saw her face
I knew that it was wrong, so baby
Turn the record on, play that song

Where everything was everything, but everything is over
Everything could be everything, if only we were older
Guess its just a silly song about you
And how I lost you,
and your brown eyes

Everything was everything, but baby its the last show
Everything could be everything, but its time to say goodbye
So, get your last fix and your last hit
Grab your old, go with the new trix

Its no surprise that I got lost in your brown eyes
In your brown eyes.. Brown eyes

The following is also something to ponder

If you woke up this morning with more health than illness...you are more blessed than the million who will not survive this week.

If you have never experianced the danger of battle, the loneliness of imprisonment, the agony of torture, or the pangs of starvation...you are ahead of 500 million people in the world.

If you have food in the refrigerator, clothes on your back, a roof overhead and a place to sleep...you are richer than 75% of this world.

If you have money in the bank, in your wallet, spare change in a dish somewhere...you are among the top 8% of the world's wealthy.

If your parents are still alive and married...you are very RARE, even in the United States and Canada.

Something to ponder

If we could shrink the earth's population to a village of precisely 100 people, with all the existing human ratios remaining the same, it would look something like the following:

There would be:
57 Asians
21 Europeans
14 from the Western Hemisphere, both north and south
8 Africans

52 would be female
48 would be male

70 would be non-white
30 would be white

70 would be non-christian
30 would be christian

89 would be heterosexual
11 would be homosexual

6 people would possess 59% of the entire worls's wealth and all 6 would be from the United States

80 would live in substandard housing
70 would be unable to read
50 would suffer from malnutrition
1 would be near death; 1 would be near birth
1 would have a college education (yes, only 1)
1 would own a computer

When one considers our world from such a compressed perspective, the need for acceptance, understanding and education becomes glaringly apparent.

dilema life

Luck vs hard work

Love vs trust

Money vs health

Experiances vs age

Enemy vs yourself

Beautiful vs kindness

Nature vs technology

Truth vs white lies

Sex vs sanity

Time vs memory

Lazy vs excuse

Hopes vs destiny

Desire vs obligations

Critisms vs improvement

Anger vs patient

Selfish vs timid

Sarcastic vs loser

Happy vs simple (from mum)

self-esteem

When we talk about children, we also talk about their future. In order to prepare for them to face the world, they must have enough self-esteem so that they won't easily get influence by the people.

A child with low self-esteem not only will easily influence by others but also afraid to risk trying new things, quickly frustrated by setbacks, and blames others for failure. Worst of all, s/he would feel unloved.

To parents, a good way to help their child feel confident about her/his abilities is to ask them to help you with chores around the house such as prepare a simple meal or take care of a pet. S/he will have a sense of accomplishment. Along the way, encourage her/him by giving honest praise and avoid criticism.

Lastly, parents should always communicate with their child. Stop and listen whenever s/he has sth to say and let him know his feelings and thoughts matter. Always support them as a child's self-esteem develops as s/he grows and nurture it as much as possible, so that s/he may grow up strong, happy and healthy.

(P.S. the children) protect and save the children

march~ the month for marching

Even though exams were finished and holidays are approaching, there is no time for rest. As is coming soon too!

how naive am i...

i just realized something...the world can be very cruel even though when you less expected it.

In my gp class today, we did a data which was about 3 different types of dismissal letter . We were asked to choose one and give reasoning.

Draft 1 was out because it is informal. Between draft 2 and draft 3, draft 2 is more friendly and considerate. Whereas draft 3 is so detailed that at the end of the employeè's name wrote down (male)! It also included a list of complaints about the employee.

Around 80% of my class chose draft 3. Maybe because i'm a sensitive person, if i was given the letter, i will definitely get irritate...

the feelings come back to me again!

i'm not sure whether i should post this...but i really want to say it out...i can't keep to myself anymore...

I thought the guy that i always dream of would not appear in my life. However, he appeared without noticing...i got this mixed feeling...

And the rest is mystery...

to those who constantly feel unsecure and threatened due to stressful situation

living in this era is really challenging and not that simple anymore. Its no more merely go to the jungle, hunting to get food to survive on the earth. We are constantly confront problems which sometimes seems like impossible to solve...this lead to stressful condition. We become frustuating, hate ourselves and start to blame things...what a sad thing to hear...

It happens in our society. However, we didn't realise that our family members also get the impact which is why many children couldn't get personal peace when their parents are in such condition and vice-versa. Many sad and unfortunate things can happen for extreme case...

Communicating is necessary but sometimes cannot achieve in such situation. Such people should get personal counselling, telling them that things such as money is man creation. Our ancestors don't need them for survive. Instead we should always remind ourselves the real reasons behind for our existance in this world. We as part of the earth-which will eventually return back to land as soil, should be aware with the environmet and appreciate the nature instead of clogging our minds with present problems due to hectic lifestyle.

natural disaster

why is there a natural disaster?

My friend told me that that it is a punishment to mankind as they did too much sins. Its quite true though...Eventhough you are rich, there is no way you can escape when natural hazard struck you...

Why mankind always make sins?
Maybe due to selfishness and authority. Does this really matter? When confronting haphazard, we are nothing but a victim of it in the end...

2009?

In the mood of updating my lonely blog, hope that the mood can stay longer...
The As results were out today...however, we could actually get our result via sms 2 days ago. Each sms will cost $3 not very worthwhile. Most of my friends knew their result via sm. Actually i decided to wait until the results were shown in public, but I just couldn't wait anymore...so last night i registered...after i knew my result, $3 didn't matter anymore.

Yerterday i went to miri to find my close friend pai nian. However, her grandpa past away half a year ago, in tradition her family shouldn't have any celebration in a year, so she took me out to new parkson! We haven't meet for ard a year. She somewhat changed in certain area. Maybe because she's taking mas com she became more polite and friendly even to strangers! Hanging ard with her for a day, all i could heard is 20 thankyou. But one thing she doesn't change is she get upset everytime her long silky hair get cut more than 5 inches!
We chat about being single and available or single but unavailable. Single n available means that person has no crush whereas single but unavailable means that person has a crush but not yet attach.
Well, for me i'm single but secretly admired sum1 lo...guess that person won't find out 4ever...
On the way, we past through a landslide. It was quite severed. Hopefully there is no victim...Just to remind, if any1 is going 2 miri don't use the main road infront of the Grand palace hotel, the area is not very stable yet.
Going to be very busy this year. Hopefully still have time to update my bloggg.
Zzz...
I've been gniyrc...moody...

dafang n cunnie, still remember this?

Found this inside my mum's mobile. Still remember where is it? Em~kimchi~
Btw, wan shi ru yi 2 u all!